PERSONAL | Life is a one time offer, use it well

I don't even know how to begin this post. Having a blog has a lot of advantages, one of them is the fact that you can express yourself or your feelings with the rest of the world, something I'm going to do in today's blog post.

There are so many things on my mind that I can't tell other people. Things like 'why can't people just be honest with each other?' or 'is it that difficult to be kind to someone else?'.
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I am that kind of person who finds it really difficult to show other people how she really is. I always struggle with showing how and who I really am. This leads to arrogance and even being mean to others. But am I like this because the people I am surrounded by are not the ones I want to be with, or is it because I just don't know who I am yet?
I am that kind of person who can't be real/best friends with others, simply because nowadays no one can be trusted. For example, when you're surrounded by people who constantly lie to each other and gossip, you'll slowly (whether you want it or not) become one of them. When I feel too attracted to people (don't get me wrong, I am not talking about love, but about friendship), I automatically withdraw. I immediately tell myself I am not allowed to get too close to them, before you know things can go completely wrong.

This day two years ago was completely different and this day last year was as well. We change, we grow and we learn to love ourselves first, maybe this is something I still need to learn. Because truly loving someone else is pretty difficult when you don't even love yourself enough. Sometimes we need to step back to be able to move forward again. There can't be an up when there is no down. But that's how life is.
People come and people go. Then they come again and leave, this time forever. People make fun of you, they embarrass, just to make themselves feel better. I'd say: smile until you make them jealous.

The reason I decided to publish this article, is because I really had to release my thoughts. Sometimes it's good to let other people know how you really feel about some things in life.